I can’t believe that this is happening again! I feel like I just blogged about the hard decision I had to make for racing at Dartmouth and here I am again. My distance coach and I have set up a plan for the season and all along, everyone knew that I planned on racing the 1 mile and 800 at Southwesterns. Yet again, my head coach is solely focused on the team result, not the individual. She signed me up for the 1 mile, 800, 2 mile, and sprint medley-racing 4 miles. She is claiming that I need to do this for the team. My immediate reaction was to laugh, the situation is just so silly! As I thought about it more though, I can’t believe how disrespectful this is to me. I have worked so hard, scored so many points for the team all season, sacrificed myself in previous Southwesterns and States and she thinks I’m being a brat. Clearly at Dartmouth I made the right decision. I ran fast for myself and to represent our school and even if I had stayed at the home meet, we still wouldn’t have won. It’s just frustrating that she can’t look at the bigger picture-that it is taxing to race that much, destructive mentally to run a 2 mile just to run it(I want to be competitive), and that I still have a long season ahead of me where I want to peak. In the end, I know she makes the decision and I’ll have to be respectful but I know in my mind I’m going to sabotage the 2 mile if I’m forced to do it. I think I will be so blown away and hopefully not let it ruin the important races but I’ve already started talking with my distance coach about dropping out. It’s hard as a kid to talk to an adult that you know is wrong- I know what I’m talking about, I know my body, I know what I can handle, what is right and I really hope she lets me fight for what I believe in and it isn’t just a closed case.
How to be respectful when disrespected January 29, 2013